by Atomic77 » Sun Apr 16, 2017 5:20 pm
I just wanted to take a moment to thank you each and everyone... For the thoughts, good vibes, kind words, encouragement and of course, your prayers. I have spent the past 26 days of the month in the hospital. What a long haul. You never know how tough you really are, until being tough is the only choice you have. I have found myself fighting for my life, my sanity, my finances... And it's certainly been a struggle. I am now half way through my chemo treatments and I am astonished at the way it changes you. It changes you physically. Mentally. Emotionally. As someone else here said, it really lets the wind out of your sails. It makes you feel hollow and empty and you look in the mirror and wonder who that horrible person is looking back at you. It's soul-crushing. But, I've lost about 45lbs which I needed to do anyway. (I don't recommend the diet plan by the way.) The chemo doctor thinks the chemo has cured my high blood pressure, so cool. (Still not recommended.) Anyway, just wanted you all to know how much we appreciate all the kind thoughts and comments. I'll tell you right now, it's the cards, texts, messages, calls and prayer that are the only things that lift me up and change my day some days. So, keep it coming ya'll. We can use it! And by the way... My build partner is now my caretaker and I'll tell you she's amazing! She's tough and she's sweet and the combo just rocks. Love my Carrie.
Someday I'll be back at the Astroliner project again. The build goes on in my mind and in my dreams...
Michael and Carrie